catch my thoughts

I came to my home in TN, in may of 1999 from, SC trying to get away from drugs, what a big let down that was, there are more drugs here than there were in SC not the best but still drugs. I thought it would be harder to find the drugs here being a small town was I fooled when you found one kind they all fell right along with each other. I was also trying to run away from something even tougher than drugs but it came with me not at first but it found me anyway, hell it never left me, I left it, with it being a really big part of me I can't get rid of it so I have come to terms with it and now I have started to let it come out slowly but surely . When I lived in SC the life style I lived was okay to a lot of people but here it is not okay it is frowned on by a great deal of people they have been taught all of there life's as well as I have that it is wrong and you will burn in hell for it . People here where I live will talk about you like a Dog for this way of life and some will burn your house down for it and even beat you up for it they can't seem to understand any other way of life than man and women, men on men , and women on women just can't make sense to them nor do they want to understand it . They can cheat on each other talk about everyone and even do drugs out the butt, steal,cheat,rob,and do all sort of bad things but to do or have a life style such as mine it just can't happen . I know there's a lot of people that are just beating the door down trying to get out so bad but are so afraid of being outcast by there family and friends, hell I'm one of them but this is who I am I can't help it I didn't choose this it is a part of me it is who I am .. I wish more would understand it here it would make a lot of people happier . Boy did I move to the wrong place I'm going to have to hide the way I am from a lot of people sometimes I here what people say about me but let them say all they want until they have or seen me with someone the hell with them.I love it here I want to stay here until the day I die, so if anyone has any ideas on what I can do let me know ?